Anemone

Well.. I think i'm done with social media
I'm done making friends.
I try my best to be a good person but I manage to drag everyone through the dirt and mud with me.

I've done some really bad things
I've tried to do many good things but mess it up.
I've lost friends doing what i thought was best in situations.
even helped two friends who completely cut me off end up in a relationship.
I've lied and cheated, i've hurt people and played dumb. 

It'll have to be ok.

The only person i've honestly hurt over all these years was myself.. cause now i'm honestly friendless, I don't want to talk to anyone else cause i feel like i'll mess that up.I don't want to meet anyone. I don't even want to work on art anymore.
i worked 10 long years to build my art and no longer care for it... I don't want to do anything but be numb cause seeing what I've done hurts.

I'm not looking to really discuss it or have any pity on myself. I shouldn't sit around and feel how i do but i do... i feel a bit of everything, I don't always use the right words when i communicate and i confuse people. I think i should just stay in the background and not in the foreground. i just want to go somewhere were noone knows me and completely disappear.