Katoxpinyin

I dreamed I was above the sink looking at my hands and I decided to cut them off. Completely. It did not hurt and there was no blood, I was actually convinced that if I just make sure they dont fall off they will heal. But then I got curious and lifted my left hand to see what it looked like inside. It was like a cartoon meat and bone, but coagulated blood started coming. I put the hand back on but it was slipping now. I started thinking if I wanted to die or not and I decided I didnt, I told some friend, my bf called my mom, who was too busy or far to help me. So I went to my neighbor nurse who poured some cream between my hands and wrists, and then when she squeezed the cream bottle fire would come out and she melted my hands back together. Then she put some band aid on them. I looked at my right hand and some fingers were purple and looked withered, I was worried I can never draw again with my right hand and asked her what will happen, she said it will heal fine.