Kurai

So im just gonna come out and say it. the quarantine has ruined my productivity and my mental health I was starting to get back into the hang of things in June. Even sketched out artwork I wanna make and such but then I was told I have to go say goodbye to my step mom cause they think her time has come. but it was starting to look up because she didn't pass away when they thought she was going to she lasted a whole week and then she died last Saturday on my birthday. If you ever wondered what people feel then loved ones die on their birthday. They feel guilt or at least I guilt logically it doesn't make sense for my to feel guilty but I do. Im decent right now but Idk how I'll feel after her funeral. Long story short I'll make more artwork as soon as I can but I dont have any type of energy to put into any of my hobbies right now sorry.