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I wanted to paint tonight, but had writing inspiration as I was outside on my own. I hope you like it.
Somebody special once told me
''Let it all out, there is a light inside
Do not be afraid, there is no reason to muddle it and hide.''
Right before I had to give up defeat,
You swore on your own life, yet I had to take my retreat
''See, I once met this angel,
Crystal grey eyes with platinum hair
She had experienced something terrible, her eyes filled with despair
Yet the most beautiful thing was the release of her cry
She let go of the haunting from her sorrow through a song
she released the weights of her shoulders and went to fly.''
Time passes,
yet these words echo through my mind
I prepare myself for a journey, all on my own
Freed myself from the shackles,
chained to their self made throne
I wish I could see your face once more, I feel alone
Strange it feels to dwell these barren desert lands with a plan of my own
These flowers I plucked from the fields at the shore earlier, they seemed less colourful before
I will not look back no, away from the cages I have flown
Night is falling as I reach and make my way through the woods,
I lift my head to the stars that glisten upon the leaves,
Wondering if I will ever see the light up close
So I can prevail these self conflicting wars of mine
I always told myself, you are granted back what you give and gain
but if I live by words of this prophecy,
Then what on earth did I take to deserve this horrid pain?
Since adolescence I have only ever felt half alive,
Nobody to trust, even my own body torning itself from inside
These wounds will be but scars with you by my side
Your words they kept me alive, healed me
Now they haunt me as you are not here
And even angels break down and cry, how will I survive if I only fear
I stop by this creek and look in my reflection, staring in the eyes of the man others told I have grown to be
But all I see is a crying boy, once surrounded by love and peace then hurt for all to see
Somebody young, innocent and selfishly pushed aside by many,
Hiding in self-shame, they left when there was nothing for them to take from me
Yet this boy smiles and laughs through the long periods of pouring rain,
He believes the waters will make life flourish again,
He doesn't need others to see him perished in his own vain
A tear rolls down my eye as I look up to the sky at this calm night
I am howling like the wolves and owls, singing their song of moonlight
Yet the echos of my cry feel so free,
Like the water flowing and the wind blowing,
they take my fears and flee
I have always given love and heart,
In return I am left bare handed, naked and torn apart
Now I continue this trail northwards, it is my path to traverse alone
No longer will I be naive to the promises of men and women I cross, on their deeds I shall rely
I wish I had known beforehand, maybe I would never have pushed myself aside
Perhaps the road I am taking was much shorter if we had not collide
I ready myself a shelter of branches and leaves to sleep,
No sun sets or rises without a thought of you and I passing by
When you hurt me and ventured further alone, did you even bat an eye?
Sincerely I hope you are happy with the decisions that you made
Although I keep looking back, I know that even our most cherished memories will fade
Dawn is breaking upon the land,
I will continue this journey now again, climbing up this mountain to reach the sky
Perhaps the light will be clearer for me to see from up this high
Now here I stand, on the peak of the mountain
Terminus reached, the echoes of harsh voices from the past still shouting with howls from the wind
I watch as the sun rises behind the hills I crack a smile and break,
these final tears will be blown away, freezing with the chills
My hands stiff from the cold as I finish this garland
These flowers around the statue I carved, they remind me of days now gone
Their colours are already withering, and with them sinister whispers will condone
Now I understand memories of what happened never eradicate
They are channeled here on this place, is there even such a thing as fate?
I close my eyes once more before I will continue my travel
Then I recall a voice in the wind, thoughts about that angel you once told me about,
And for the first time I feel ready to let go and cry
It feels good to be up here, alone, right between earth and sky
Briefly it seemed if you were with me once more,
But it is only lullaby, a remembrance at that shore of you and I
Just like that angel,
you left your sorrows behind to spread your wings
Although I am now alone and carry the burden,
I can make it through and we will reunite as kings