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@UNH1NGED Hello! Do you still have
this OC?? I found this wip and want to continue drawing it again once I find my tablet.
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Yes please!
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Thank you! I ordered a tablet that's arriving tomorrow! I'll start it asap.
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reminds me of the gorillaz art style. nice- 5 comments
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A little health update: So I have my jpouch surgery Wednesday 21st August. I leave on Tuesday 20th to go to Edinburgh where the surgeon that specialises in familial adenematous polyposis will be performing my surgery. I'm both nervous and excited. Just two days left until I leave for Edinburgh and it couldn't come fast enough. Goodbye ileostomy bag!
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Hope everything goes well dear!
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Hello. I was wondering. I have seen a thread for depression & anxiety. And I was thinking about those with psychosis creating a group for those diagnosed with psychotic disorders; schizophrenia, bipolar, psychotic depression, schizoaffective. I'm super lazy though and would need help making a group if anyone was interested. Is this a good idea?
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Well I don't have a tablet anymore sad to say and it's been so long since I've drawn anything I doubt I'll ever return to art. Which is sad. My art had come a long way and was steadily improving and I just. Stopped. For an entire year now. I kept saying I'd do more artwork and never did. Oh well.
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Hello. Currently been nearly 3 months in psychiatric hospital inable to do any drawing or nothing. Prior to that I wasn't drawing for months. Hopefully haven't forgotten everything but. Still no signs of getting out either. I've now gotten used to being in here and started to call the psychiatric hospital "home" by losing all hope of getting out. Hey ho.
Merry christmas everyone hope everyone's doing well themselves.
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Hi there ! I've read from someone on twitter about her own experience being in the psychiatric hospital and I cried . It's really a depressing environment to be in & I hope you can get out from there asap . Don't lose hope , I'm sure one day like this person , you can also get out of it and you finally have the freedom to do arts and express yourselves freely . I don't celebrate christmas but hey ho merry christmas to you dear *give you virtual hug
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Hello. Thank you :) * virtual hugs back* It is quite depressing especially those in here long term.
I consider myself fortunate I'm now getting passes (just got them now) but family do stress me out so I'm also thankful I still have bed at my pschiatric hospital one of those things.
When I got home, I downloaded paint tool sai on this laptop and also worked out how to connect my laptop to my phone's data so I can do art on gasr that way. It'll take a while for my laptop charger to be PAT tested but I shall get to do arts while in hospital which is great :D
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Aa I just realize this reply ! But I'm glad things are slowly looking better for you
It's cool you can do arts in the hospital now ! Have fun & take care , don't forget to eat (*me reminding you when I always skip meal when I too indulge doing arts lol)
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Does anyone have screenshots they're willing to donate that I can practice using for drawing with? You'll get the artwork at the end.
I just don't want to open a free shop because I always go hiatus after a couple anyway.
Thank you! :)
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Hello and welcome to this group! Trauma Survivors aims to be supportive, friendly and welcoming. Since trauma can be a difficult topic for many, it is asked that when posting any new topics that any potential triggers are placed in brackets in the title along with being added to the tags. It is also asked that an alias is used instead of your real name to keep anonymous. Of course many of you will already have friends on here and will know each others real names but this is to protect your personal information against strangers online, it can also make it easier for people to open up if they're true identity is kept hidden! This will be mentioned in the introductory thread in this section (GENERAL). There will be a thread in this section (GENERAL) where you can post your stories if you so wish. However please note that if you are mentioning other people that names and details such as where you live, addresses, etc should not be used. Any information found to be giving away too much information will be removed by a moderator. Again, this is to protect the other people's data/privacy as well as your own and to keep you safe. Again at the start of your story please add any trigger words before you begin in order to prevent others from being triggered as some topics can be more sensitive than others! Please note that Trauma Survivors encourages those that have not been diagnosed but have experienced some form of trauma in their past to still participate and we hope the topics give you a better insight into yourself and your symptoms. However, please refrain from self-diagnosing until seen by a licensed professional. There is nothing wrong however saying you think you might have a disorder and *such such* has helped you a lot and seems to match your symptoms and it has aided your understanding of yourself better. Your trauma is still real, and you're still valid! Untreated undiagnosed individuals need others help the most and I hope that you see a professional soon so that you can find the best treatment for you! Feel free to post images (GA of course) and quotes that are positive and inspirational to you, Trauma Survivors would love to see what motivates you! And of course GASR rules apply, and simply respect others and I hope you enjoy the group. Feel free to send feedback and suggestions on how to improve the group via pm @Emmzi.
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Would anyone be kind enough to recommend me or show me decent hair brush settings on paint tool sai? I got a new version of sai but it doesn't have my previous hair settings from months ago and I'm really struggling to draw decent hair atm with it.
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check out some of these to see if they suit u
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Today is 4 months post-surgery. I've never posted pics of my scars and bag but I might edit and add them later on idk.
SpoilerChristmas/new year we were expecting the worst and I wasn't going to make it. I was getting sicker and sicker by the day. I could barely walk, I could barely move, I was too tired to even open my eyes despite sleeping most of the day. I was in so much pain. For those that don't know I have familial adenomatous polypisis which is a genetic cancerous disease which causes benign polyps ( tumors) to grow in the colon up to the thousands which turn malignant/cancerous.
Hospital was a fight in itself. In march I had to go in earlier than planned to get overnight iron through an IV as I was extremely anemic. A day after surgery it was the best day of my life I felt AMAZING. I finally understood what NORMAL felt like. What having ENERGY felt like. However, it was the day after that it all went wrong and my small intestine went into shut down - which most people experience when having their entire large intestine removed. My small intestine looped itself in multiple plaes causing extreme pain, they were ruluctant to give me morphine since that makes the small intestine shut down more and opiates were not helping at all. I was vomiting continiously from the pain. Most nights I was crying and even screaming I was in so much agony, so much so I had to get emergency MRIs during the night which was when they found my small intestine all tangled up and in shut down. Couple times I was given morphine just because the surgeon saw how much pain I was in. It dulled it down a little but not even that got rid of it. It was the worst pain I've ever felt in my entire life and probably will be the worst pain I'll ever experience. Then came vomiting feaces. That's when they tried to get the tube down me. They tried 7 times over a couple days but I just couldn't do it and I felt bad that I wasn't able to get the tube down me and I refused in the end it was horrible. One point it went in my lungs instead of my stomach and I coughed up blood. Another time it went in properly but I still didn't stop vomiting which the doctors were surprised about, so they decided to leave it. But they did warn me that I was at risk of my small intestine rupturing and I could die.
I couldn't eat anything for 10 days. The most I could eat was ice cubes and even then my small intestine couldnt process the water and I vomited up. But eventually my small intestine started to work again and I was able to eat a bacon roll which was the best bacon roll I've ever had IN MY LIFE. I will never take food for granted again. You really start to appreciate food when you've truly not had anything for 2 weeks. I was so thin and gaunt. But when I was able to walk around the ward and get that bacon roll, actually able to WALK (although I was struggling) it was the best feeling ever.
Now 4 months on I'm fully recovered. I have to get yearly checkups but that's nothing. I do have polyps in my small intestine and stomach. But I know the nhs are looking after me and if I do get cancer in the small intestine or stomach I will be well looked after. But I will pray it'll never come to that.
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its so awful what u had to go through girl, ur so strong. i cant even bare to imagine the pain :( thankfully ur better now and i wish u the best!
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Just to check: So we can't use gaia avatars for a reference right (If it's a commission)? I was kind of confused by the rules in terms of using gaia avatars. It says a character design. Does that mean any artwork or just character designs.
Not really comfortable with using gaias for commission based work I'm fine with it if it's free I see no harm, gaia sees no harm. But eeeeeh using it as a reference at least if it's being heavily referenced and you're gaining profit from it is kind of copying another artist and I feel like it's against gaias copyright and I'm not comfortable with it. Maybe this answers my own question but maybe I'm a little harsh and strict when it comes to copyright, since commissioning fanart is allowed on here (which is also TECHNICALLY against copyright) and I don't see any difference from that and commissioning a gaia avatar so.
Want to make sure if anyone knows.
I'm a confused bean. Thank you.
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Do you ever know that feeling when you hate your own art style but you can't change it no matter how many times youve tried it turns out into the same style so you just sorta accept it as part of who you are as a person?
Yeah.
Same.
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Awwww I feel flattered thank you bbs
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I can relate to this on a cosmic level
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I miss drawing/doing art so much. I'm scared that this long break away from doing art is gonna cause me to forget how to draw and I'll be terrible and back to square one again. It's my biggest fear.
I keep having the muse to draw and missing it and never having the energy or the time to do it.
One day. I'm praying I can still draw when I come back. And people want my art.
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New year. New tablet. New and improved art.
The only thing I've really properly sketched out is the hair and face daaaamn has this tablet done wonders on my art. Or I've just improved. Idk.
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It's cool you can do arts in the hospital now ! Have fun & take care , don't forget to eat 
(*me reminding you when I always skip meal when I too indulge doing arts lol)
I'm a confused bean. Thank you.
Working on a bigger canvas is so much easier though .
Just wish it wouldnt lose detail when i make dp versions T.T
I keep having the muse to draw and missing it and never having the energy or the time to do it. 
