Martinus

I have accomplished something in my life!!! I finished my planning for the first half of this month 2 days early LOL! 

That also means I got extra time for premades - drop your suggestions in a comment and I'll see if I can follow up on them before the 14th. 

 

Hello Art Haveners!  

It's been two years now since I joined the website.

When I first joined the community I wasn't sure if I'd fit in. I was introduced by my friend Capsule, who was aware that I have long been curious to make income from my art, and that I was looking to meet a new community full of creative and open minded people to join and share my passion and interests with. 

 

And wrong I was. I've met so many amazing people throughout these two years and made friends wide over the world as soon as I joined the website. I've received and seen so much support and love, have gotten close to so many individuals and found myself a little virtual home. No matter what time it is or where I am, there's always someone that has my back, and I'm very grateful for that. 

 

Throughout time I managed to grow more confident and expressive in my work thanks to all the support and encourage. I've gathered more strength to share my work not just online, but people closer to me as well, like my family.

 

A lot of good and bad things have happened to me within this timespan. But I still want to enjoy and celebrate all that I've achieved so far! There's christmas dp's coming soon in December, and I will be hosting a give away DP (160x220) commission based on your OC. The only requirement is that you have an Art Haven account that is at least 3 months old! 

 

How to participate:

 

 

I have something else planned for the coming days, so stay tuned!!

Thank you so much for the support and love, always. 

 

Cheers

 

Hello everyone! I just wanted to give a little heads up about myself! 

 

In the past two weeks I've been tremendously ill to the point I was taken to the hospital by ambulance on Tuesday, so I haven't done any university work, or personal work in that time. 

 

I was working on a premade set for spring, but I do not think I will finish it this month without rushing it. Since spring is still not happening for me, I'll have plenty of time to work on the pieces I want. 

 

Furthermost I started accepting some private commissions, to see how I can handle with commissions nowadays and what is a fair price for me / and the time I spend on my art. If all goes well I might end up taking a couple of public slots for commissions. I will give another heads up in case that is happening! 

 

Lastly, today I been trying to sketch, but I sweat like crazy and get headaches when I spend long enough behind my PC. Regardless I got some sketches out of two chicks I might turn into DP's and a stylized sketch of my own OC. I'm trying to change things up a bit and differ from just semi realism, and I hope it'll look great once I render these pieces out!

 

Click the spoiler if you want to see the sketches. 

 

 

Thanks for reading, and I hope you have a lovely weekend.  

 

RIP GASR, hello THOTR. It has been overrun.

It was fun while it lasted. 

 

PS. If you don't like Regina either, you can come sit with me. 

Sending a quick regard that I have been abscent and hospitalized for a week, so I am behind on my premade shop, customs page and what not. I am back home now however, so I will get to all your pm's and requests shortly. 

 

Thank you for understanding! I hope all of you had an amazing holiday so far! 

 

Hey hey everyone!!  6 new DP's coming tonight in my shop!!

 

Posting a little update as I haven't in two weeks. I been working on some DP's on and off in the past month, also some gift art and some personal art while trying to keep up with all my uni deadlines, LOL.  And guess what? I passed all my exams and have all my points for my reports. 

 

Not much about my hand injury has changed. Although there's no pain, there's still some occasional numbness in my thumb and I don't expect it to go away unless I wear a brace for it, I do plan on visiting a doctor for that. But as long as I take plenty of breaks I can draw!  Thank you for reading!

 

 

A little personal, if you want to read:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Taking my parents out for some night McDrive... Way to start the holiday season! 

We'll be working hard in the coming days before Christmas to get some stuff done in the house as we have a lot of moving to do, so time to do some crazy things first to lift up the mood!

 

 

 

Enjoy the holidays y'all. <3

 

 

Little update on my arm and the coming weeks!

I can almost stretch and use my arm to it's fullest, but there's still a slight numbness in my wrist and holding a pencil for too long sends stings down my arm, so I do have to take it easy for a week or two, I hope much less.  I'm practicing a lot of yoga to get the neurotic pain out of my arm, and I believe it's slowly working. 

 

Unfortunately I have a huge ass report to write for university, and can't really dodge it's deadline lol so I hope I won't overload my arm with that. 

 

For the coming month I will focus on event art (secret santa, maybe the charity event too again) personal art and my next premade collection. I already have a ton of ideas but I will have to postpone them a bit for now! 

 

CUSTOMS:

I have also received a ton of PM's asking for custom art. Until I'm recovered I will not accept any private commissions. I will not promise dates anytime soon to avoid possible strain on myself. When the time to do customs again is right, I will inform all of you with another status update and have things ready here on my profile.  Bless you all for the support though, it means so very much and motivates me. 

 

LAST:

Happy thanksgiving to the Americans under us. Stay safe from the cold and enjoy all the coming festivity!  

 

Hello everyone,

 

I'm going through a lot mentally at the moment. I'm writing this because I got multiple pm's and some things to reply to but my mind and heart can't find the energy to reply right now. It's going to take me at least a day or two for me to reply back to you.

 

I hope you understand and I thank you for caring and taking the time to check my updates out.

 

Cheers,

Martinus

Heyo everyone, It's been a very long time since I posted here on the Art Haven website, and I hope that you are making it through this epidemic well. Times are tough, but the soothing part of it is that you're not facing it alone, everyone of us is dealing with the same struggles and fear of what is to come. 

 

For me personally, I needed a lot of time away from making as much art for sale as I used to. After a very long period of time of producing art on a week or even monthly basis, my fuel had somewhat ran out as my health had deteriorated when I didn't look after myself anymore. Things are still tough sometimes but I'm doing my best right now to take care of myself, and to use this isolation to sleep properly, eat at good times, keep my environment clean and take time to reflect on who I am and where I want to head in my life. 

 

For starters, I have been working on DPs every now and then when I was in the mood, and I've actually managed to release one for the winter auction - It's named ''Frozen'' and is up for bidding by following this link if you're interested to see or maybe bid on it. 

 

I'm going to try to post frequently again on here, and I will do my best to finish a small set of DPs before christmas or the end of the year.  So if you've been looking forward to more art from me, better watch this space. For now I'm still going to take it chill and finish some other stuff, but I'll be back and restoring my premade shop very thoon. 

 

Thank you for reading and for all the kind pm's that I've received in the past few weeks. I appreciate them all very much. 

 

RANDOM THOUGHT:

I want to be a merman for Halloween but I have nothing to attend, and I could not attend anything without my legs...

 

 

 

 

 

 

PEEPS. It's been super long. I am not dead I am just very busy with so much art... That I've steered away from Art Haven a lot. It is incredibly difficult to manage multiple platforms at once while also making art and doing that life-thing we all need to do. 

 

I do miss so many of you kind folks, but it's hard for me to get around sometimes... I so often think back about all the cool little DP's I used to make, and feel so nostalgic often. 

 

So between times, I have been cooking up some premades in my spare time. I might even open some YCH (your character here), or maybe even PYOC. (pick your own colours) 

 

If you'd be interested in any male or female YCH/PYOC, write a comment to this post and I'll make sure to cook them up!! 

 

Anyhoo, enough tork. Here's 2 WIP dp's! 

 

 

 

Cheers and happy pride month,

 

Martini 

I'm so thankful for the people far over the globe who have a resting effect on me. 

@StarBooty @captainkaddy @Egyptian

Thank you guys for being there for me even when I'm the biggest ass. 

 

I owe you. 

Have some male tibbies as a teaser for another premade 

 

 

Will probably open up a new shop as well since I am not sure if my old one still is alive. Will contact the dear moddies! 

   H A P P Y     E A S T E R  

 

tbh I'm most likely not going to do anything at all but relax and stuff my face with chocolate.

 

 

 

I kind of didn't really know how to start writing this status. But I wanted to because it's a huge recap on me and all the things I've been through that I haven't shared with many people. May it inspire or comfort you when you feel the same like I do. Make you feel less alone maybe.

 

Back when I was around the age of 15 and maturing, I failed to realise that the things and special outgoing activities I did with family or friends were slowly losing it's excitement and the joy I experienced. I was procedurally losing joy and willpower to do things on my own. Slightly after that I was blooming socially and somewhat physically, confronting myself with the awkwardness of being open about myself and my interests, teaching myself to socialise. I got a lot of friends and was considered extroverted by a lot of people. However I always felt alone, distant and empty being around my friends or doing any activities.

 

By the time I graduated in 2017 on my study for graphic design and game art, I fell into a loophole uncertain what to do. I was too insecure to follow my dreams and tried more simple education to find a job suiting me and providing me with economical stability with thoughts on the future. 

 

I can tell you those plans didn't work out. I had stressed myself out and had everything crashing down upon me. I became hypersensitive to every person important around me that struggled, siphoning all of my energy into them and it felt I was met with zero in return. I started cutting off people around me, stopped doing things I had to do and cut almost everything out of my life. 

 

Despite starting a new study in September 2018 I literally gave no fuck anymore about anything, but especially myself. I felt like perishing on my own, because it felt like I had nothing or nobody to live for. I couldn't sleep anymore and I had daily outbreaks of crying and anger with no reasoning as to why. The smallest bits of critique on me would hurt me because it'd make me feel utter useless. I believed everybody was looping their way around me and used me for their own good  and would ditch me once I no longer deemed useful to them. Every humble word the people I loved spoke to me were lies and manipulation to keep me just close enough for when they needed me. The feelings of self hatred amplified and felt justified, when indeed almost all of the people I cut off did not even look back as to where I disappeared to or bothered to ask me how I was really doing.

 

Things felt crucial to me when the joy and euphoria I felt from art had dissipated.  

I felt like a hollow shell of bitterness and failure. I quit my study to take time for myself and to figure myself out. It was honestly the best thing I could've done at the time and I'm thankful for getting that space from my family, even if at times my family kept intervening and pushing me which I understand to be out of love.

 

In February 2019 I went to the doctor for a minor health complication. She checked up on me and asked me about my diabetes type 1, and how according to my medical documents, I hadn't made a visit to the hospital for any assistance or checkups in over 3 years, and she asked me as to why and how I was doing right now. I ended up crying and opening up, expressing my hopelessness and addressing my state of mind and the more ominous thoughts that I was having. She immediately directed me to a psychologist and made medical appointments for me to get a medical check on everything.

 

I've somehow met light in July 2019, and it's been a year of fighting and struggling up and down since, but in general I keep climbing and that is the very reason I am writing this status. 

 

Last week I got the news that I'm accepted into university again after initially dipping out of the admission rounds in June. I received perfect feedback and I couldn't even keep my tears to myself that day. I'm going to be studying for my bachelors in Games and Interactive Design. It was a huge and stressful period where I had to work on a massive admission project and expose my portfolio again while keeping my financial situation stable throughout the corona crisis with no job. I been having therapy to deal with my social anxiety disorder started in July this year and I will use many of the fundamentals I learned on my new art journey and my social life. My social anxiety disorder has been a major part of my life caused by trauma in my early teens, providing me with self-centered cynical thoughts and feels almost like a self fulfilling prophecy.

 

I occasionally still struggle with ominous thoughts and self hatred, it's honestly humilitiating and upsetting but I've never hurt myself and don't think I ever would now. This must also be my first time admitting I suffer from this to a lot of people, but it will no longer be taboo from me since I feel at heart that a lot of people struggle with or relate to a certain degree.

 

I'm just happy to pick up life and having a physical feeling of future and progression, to be brave enough to expose my essence and what I stand for to anybody and to say out loud again that I matter. I'm done hiding my sexuality, my diabetes, my interests or my personality. I've hidden myself to so many people throughout my entire teenage years in fear of being hurt or humiliated again. I'm done living on numbed-out survival mode and I'm ready to feel alive and strife for happiness even if it'd be nothing but a dream. It's not about the results anymore for me, it's about the journey that I will make and I'm working on rewiring that in my brain.

 

I can say art and the people who support my work are a contributing part of what allowed me to mend and pick myself up. The support and people I met that have been patient and supportive of me and my personality worked as a foundation to self acceptance and healing. Every little vote or comment I get on my art helped me realise that I matter and that I have an essence that will never ever go away. Some of these people became really close friends, because they were also interested in the person behind the art. They made me realise that people miss me, want to be friends with me, listen to me, and be there for me.

 

It took me almost a week to word and write this message and even now when I'm approaching the end I'm tearing up. Because this year was filled with solitude and financial stress but for the first time I continued for myself and didn't give up on me. I feared the worst for myself but I kept on going.

 

If you made it to the end I thank you for reading. I'm going press the submit button even if I fear to do so because I stand with my words and I will try my hardest to continue living by my words and the things I have learned.

 

 

 

 

Hiii a short and simple message!! I'm going to be streaming this piece I'm working on for something special. 

Hope you guys have a lovely weekend. 

live for a short while! I´ll try to talk but it´s 3 AM and IDK if my mic can pick sounds up. Would love to finally paint a bit again as I haven´t done much in the past.

 

 

Will be livestreaming for a bit!! Unless I start stressing then it's byebye hahaha! 

 

 

(click image for the link to my auction shop.)

 

At last!!! My auction is live. I'm so excited!!! 

This is the first time I'm offering such a high resolution piece as this one (3840x2676 pixels.) and am really happy with how she turned out.

 

I hope you guys enjoy the piece. 

New shop has been made!! WOOO!  I will be posting some premades here later so stay tuned 

 

Back to back chillstream with Capsule! 

https://multistre.am/cap_serum/kingmartinus/layout4/

 

Streaming alongside Capsule tonight, drop her a follow so you won't miss out on any of her lovely artsessions! I will be chilling mostly working on some portraits, and I don't know how long I'll be on! 

https://multistre.am/cap_serum/kingmartinus/layout4/

 

Going live with Cap! Will be doing ugly doodles, maybe some premade painting and some BDO grinding later. 

Hello everyone 

 

It's been so, so long since I last posted an update from myself on Art Haven. But I hope the majority of you has been doing good.

I've been doing quite well. I've been busy with focusing on a male-NSFW Twitter, and was commissioned to do a large freelance project. It was scary to dive into such a responsibility, but it's almost done now and I'm super hyped to have my works featured somewhere. 

 

A huge part of me misses doing display pictures, and I've had asks as to where I've gone, and when I will be doing new premades.

I still have a couple of unsold ones that I might upload and revive my shop. I am still quite busy in between the lines, so I can't give any actual date or anything for now. 

 

Cheers for now! 

 

 

 

Henlo my friendos!!! 

 

I hope you're doing great. And if you've celebrated Thanksgiving, I hope that you had a wonderful day and are now having a good weekend!!

 

I myself bought a Switch so I've been playing games today LOL, now it's time to get to work. 

I'm hopping on here to quickly announce that I will start doing DP commissions again around mid-December for a set price. More information will follow soon alongside a profile overhaul.

 

It's hard for me to believe that I've been here on Art Haven for FOUR years now... time flies, jeesh.